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LMAO. Your efforts are paying off. One day, she's just gonna show up at your door with wine and prosthetics. No words necessary. Then, you'll really be scared :)
There are times when people mistake my being nice for being a push over or someone they can manipulate. There are also times when people mistake my silence for being weak.
That is not that case.
Because I am a nice person and I do like to help people if I can, I am constantly aware of my surroundings. Just because I do not get involved in conflicts doesn't mean that I do not know what's going on or who it surrounds. I've been burnt before by turning a blind eye. I will never be burnt like that again.
I see what surrounds certain people and why it surrounds them. Even someone born with no eye sight can see it clearly because it is just that obvious. I watch. I learn. I listen. And with most it's like watching it on a jumbo screen and hearing a constant screaming in your ears; hard to miss, huh?
Sometimes I am silent when issues arise. Including those that involve myself. I do not have to justify myself to anyone. If you're impression of me is a negative one, it's your prerogative and right within the ToS to express your personal opinion.
Everyone has that right. Even I have that right, but because this site, and more so myself, hold me to a higher standard, I choose to exorcise my right in a more obscure and vague way. I express myself and I move on. I enjoy life to much to be dragged into a constant battle of conflicts and petty behavior.
However do not let my silence fool you into thinking I will not stand up for myself. That is not that case. I will stand up for myself if need be. I will not let someone try and bully me; in life or online. There are too many people who bully because they feel no one will stand up to them. I am not one of those people. My silence means I just cannot be bothered with your ignorance. In the big picture your less than stellar ways mean nothing to me.
I am tired of seeing such meanness and vileness come out of people. I have seen people use a spot they have to bully and call people names. I have seen some people constantly attack those for a reason that has no importance what so ever.
It is different if you are defending yourself, but even in defending yourself there is a way to do so.
You do not have to be mean and hateful.
Do I slip from being a nice person at times? Oh yes I do. This happens very rarely, but when I am pushed into a spot that I am just fed up, I will release the pent up frustration I have.
Some people like to push way to much. And they never learn when to stop.
If someone needs help within VampireRave, I would never put my personal feelings over being professional. I would answer the question and continue on. You may have my help with issues concering VR, but you will never have my friendship, personal time or trust. And even some people who I have considered to be friendly with have lost those things as well. I do not have time for vileness and being hateful. I want my life painted with beautiful vibrate colors. I do not want it smeared with the darkness that you hold within yourself.
Moonie, just keep being yourself. You, at the end of the day, have a clear conscious. Most of us already know that you are a good person and that you hold yourself to a higher PROFESSIONAL standard on this site that many could afford to learn from. Do not ever change.
I do not want this entry to come across as though I am looking for compliments or self esteem boosts. That is not the case at all. There are times when things need to be laid out so the world can see them and understand. Especially when you are not familiar with a person and how they deal with situations.
Since people are afraid to ask because most are afraid of truth, I thought it would be best to just address the thoughts I had.
I feel the same way Moonie. I have no real standing here and I am no one but I like to think that sometimes I stand out, tell it like it is and walk away. Should someone take offense it really is their problem and not mine, it is so easy to misunderstand a person one does not know.
I don't know what this is about, I don't want to know, I don't know if we are friends or acquaintance but you always have my support and understanding.
Okay now since I am home and not updating via my phone I can go into a lil more detail about the houses.
The one that was 47,000 was HORRIBLE. The outside was really nice. Exactly what I would have like. Then you go into the inside. I didn't even bother. It was horrible. It stunk like there was something left in there. So my dad power walked it. There was no tub, the floors were bad, people had started to redo it and just left things. It looked like there was more damage deep down than what it was worth. Plus, there was like 2 kitchens. WTF. I have no clue.
So then we go to the other house.
The outside just beautiful. The inside I. Hated. It. The house was long. Which means that it was small width wise. It was like they threw a hallway with bedrooms and a bathroom on the side of the house. I was like.. are you serious? The main bathroom had a tub and toilet next to each other separated by a wall. When I tinkle, I do not want to feel claustrophobic. The house was very.... oppressive. With nothing in it the house was fine, but I know as soon as stuff started to go in there I would not have been a happy camper. I would have felt like I was in a cage. Which I totally do not dig at all.
We'll find something. If I don't fall in love with a house I don't want it. Simple as that really.
Shit, the last one actually sounded like a freaking hamster cage, ya know the one with the tubes that extend out and up? I had one as a kid, I always felt bad for the little critters and let them out to roam (not that my Dad was happy about that one, heh). I don't blame you, don't buy until you are completely and utterly smitten with the house.
I know you will find one you like, it will probably take some time, but I have faith you will find one you adore.
:o)
19:52 Mar 27 2011 Times Read: 743
Well, those two houses were a bust. The one for 47000 was horrible in the inside. The other one was nice but not my style. Back to the drawing board.
Sunday I am going to look at a House. My dad went and looked at it today. He really liked it. So I figured I'd go and look at it.
I am indifferent about this now. I really want a bigger house. Another bathroom and bedroom. I look around and this house has been in the family since it was built in 1952. My great-grandmother lived here (even though she was crazy she was pretty nifty). I came here when I was a kid.
There are memories in this house. I know memories go with me, but I just look around and just see different things play out. We checked into making an addition, but it was tooooo expensive. It's cheaper to go and buy a bigger house than put on an addition. YAY for Michigan being messed up!
Housing is cheap up here as well. We are talking pretty nice houses for 25k. All because it's too fucking cold for everyone.
I hope you guys find something that you can enjoy, and that the memories never fade. The newness of places is always unsettling to me, so I can imagine what it's like to you.
Wow...the house I grew up in, my parents bought back in 1952! And now, my mom is moving into a condo she just bought. We wanted to keep the house in the family, but thanks to a predatory loan, it's gone. I still get very angry when I think of it...I also have a lot of happy memories about my first home...
Anyway, I hope you find what you want, and that the price is reasonable!
Well, lock yourself in a room, put on your webcam and Duc Duc, Abs, Seeker, Bones, and Stiletto (when she gets back, that is) and I shall make you laugh and feel all happy-like again.
Don't lock yourself in a room; there is no fun to that. Get someone to chain you and lock you up. Then you can be withdrawn and still have an adventure.
Moonie isn't getting a lot of things Fresh air and outside are just a few of the things on the list. :o|
01:33 Mar 24 2011 Times Read: 893
You know... I hope everyone that puts a cam topic with "no drama" etc.. get's the worst case of drama EVER. All you are doing is begging for it. Hell, I even want to go in and start drama just for the principle of it. But I won't because.. I just don't care.
But damn it's annoying. And you seriously wonder why people come in and start drama? Because of the topic! Dur.
I do not have a BOB. So therefore, I could not break what I do not have. :P
I am just so cranky I can't even stand myself. Like I could seriously throw a tantrum like a 2 year old. I find myself randomly glaring at things and having violent tendencies.
Today I am practicing the art of silence and restraint. It is harder today than what it has been in the past. I find myself looking at certain people and wondering how they can lie so easily to themselves and actually believe it. And then be so blind to think that when they lie to others believe it just as much as they do.
If you like to revel in being a victim and playing the role, than own up to it. Just because you can look at yourself in the mirror and lie doesn't mean that others will believe it. When the lies become obvious and the actions support the truth, the facade you make beings to crack and crumble. Yet there you sit still still spewing the tales and trying to make them believable.
Then you began to seek out audience. An audience that did not buy a ticket to your show of lies, betrayal and inadequate tales. They sit and look at you with looks of boredom and disbelief. You mistake those looks for concern and understanding and keep right on with the same song and dance.
It's old. The curtain needs to be drawn and the show needs to stop. It's becoming redundant and obvious. Yet there you stand still oblivious to it all.
It's a shame because it makes you look foolish and asinine.
When I close the curtain on my foolish and asinine show, you will all scream for an encore. You will rue the day you forced me to take my one man show to another town! Go ahead, get to rueing. I'll wait :)
Today is one of those days where I would love to just stay in bed all day. Just to fill my time with dozing on and off, reading and day dreaming. It'd be even better to share it with someone. To lay together and just enjoy random conversations, sharing moments, thoughts and ideas.
That is one of the things I miss about being in a relationship. I loved having that time with someone that I really enjoyed.
Uh, I thought that's what Lotion, Nacho, Duc Duc, TOM, and I were for?
;o)
You know, random conversations, ideas, and spontanious thoughts running amok throughout everyday nonsense. Not to mention, we make you giggle (and blush, a lot I must say).
So here we sit in the church parking lot. I can feel the burn of eternal damnation starting to make me itch. The cat is meowing and has wicked gas, the dog is growling at the cat. My dad is smacking the dog. It's 1:20 and only the agent is at the house. If these other peeps don't show, Imma be pissy.
Yes, we are selling it. We need a bigger house before I go to jail for premeditated murder on an old man who always suddenly has to pee when I get in the bathroom. Lol
19:54 Mar 17 2011 Times Read: 1,069
I find it so hard to be your friend sometimes. Once we were close, but not any longer. It gets tiresome to force things. I don't want you out of my life, but I do want to limit my interactions with you to a point.
I kinda feel bad for this, but really I don't. I think it's for the best since you have your things going on and I have mine. Our paths in life aren't the same as they used to be. There are times I wish I could change it, but this time, I just don't think I want to.
You are seriously such a waste of skin. You can sit there and run your mouth like there is no tomorrow, but when it comes down to someone putting you in your place you delete the comments. Or you just flat out run.
Your little ploy is a bunch of bullshit just like you.
I am going to look into a new bed. I guess that means I have to venture out and see what kind I want to get. I have a king size now, but I think I am going to go down to a queen. I love having a king size, but then again I don't.
When people "test the mattress" in the store, they always lie down in a coffin-esque pose. On back, stiff, uncomfy.
I think you should dive onto the bed, squirm, and assume some realistic bed-testing poses! At the very least, you won't have to look for a salesman to help you :)
22:35 Mar 13 2011 Times Read: 1,167
Sometimes I have what I like to call episodes . I am sure everyone has a different name that they call them, but I find that episodes fits it rather well for me.
I can be my own worst enemy. I can be much worse to myself than what any enemy can be to me. At times the only place I can find solace from myself is surrounded by silence and to lose myself in books.
I constantly think. Hell, even while I write this I am thinking about 4 other things. It's a blessing and a curse.
So far just within the past 5 days I've went through 3 books and started my fourth today. I don't know why it helps my episodes, but it does.
Nothing helps more than a good book. Well, Prozac and a good book, but you get the idea. heh.
We all tend to be our own worst enemies most of the time, so you're really no different than most. Everyone handles it differently.
Maybe the reason it helps to turn to a good book is that it's a form of escapism and removes you from what you perceive as the immediate threat? This isn't necessarily a bad thing, it's just your way of dealing with it.
I speak Life, Encouragement and Peace over all that you do and are a part of. We are able to wield the perfect weapon, for we know what will do the most damage. In that solace, I hope you find not only the willingness to lay down those weapons of self-destruction, but the answers and methods by which you may come to recognize and acknowledge the amazing individual that you are.
17:07 Mar 12 2011 Times Read: 1,180
I've been sleeping horrible over the past days. I fall asleep and I wake up tossing and turning. It's draining. I don't know what it is. I really don't have anything on my mind other than the usual things, No caffeine before bed, etc.
There are times when thinking and I do not mix. When I keep asking myself questions that I drive myself crazy with. Sometimes they are questions that I could find the answer to, but the answers bring fear. Then I think do I really want to know the answers? Will I like the outcome? or will the outcome shatter me even if for the briefest moment?
I feel as though I need to remove my head from the clouds and bring myself back to a sense of reality. Or maybe I just need to scrap it all together. I wish some things came with a manual. :o|
When you look up brood, you'll see a picture of me deep in thought. It's a terrible habit I've had ever since I was a kid. I think it comes from years of having only myself to figure things out.
If there were a manual, I'm sure it would be in a language I can't read and no one would be present to translate it. Someone should call Rosetta Stone and tell them to get on that
Right there with ya sugar- divorce can do that to ya- you'll what if yourself to death, and I know cause I does it. It happens. Let it run it's course, and then wake up and look at something pretty....
I really, really hope I am not coming down with something. :(
I feel total ick. I am not sure if it's from my cpap machine or what, but my sinus' are all puffy. I used some floral lotion last night and it was NOT good. :( I don't think I can wear heavy floral stuff anymore.
Do you wanna know what the best medicine is...? ;D
Seriously though, take it easy, Moonie. :(
21:39 Mar 05 2011 Times Read: 1,314
Oh please every holy power I can think of, please let me get through this day without losing my inner censor button. I pray to you. PLEASE do not let it slip even a fraction of an inch. Please do not throw stupid people in my face. That is all I ask for today.
There is so much I want to say, so much I could say, but I am going to remain silent. There are times when I have to pick and choose what to say. Not only with what surrounds me, but also with the way I feel. I mean emotionally wise.
While I am not an overly emotional person there are times when I just well up with so much emotion, that I have to find an outlet for it. Not bad emotion, but just emotion that touches my heart at times.
I also pick and choose my battles. Because at times it gets so draining to constantly fight and bicker. I don't understand how people can be in this constant state? Doesn't it take a toll on you? Really, honestly, I am curious.
COMMENTS
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Seeker2112
23:11 Mar 30 2011
LMAO. Your efforts are paying off. One day, she's just gonna show up at your door with wine and prosthetics. No words necessary. Then, you'll really be scared :)
MooniePie
23:12 Mar 30 2011
No, I'd be scared if YOU showed up with wine and prosthetics. :P
Deity
23:39 Mar 30 2011
Hahaha!
You are so wrong for that.
So wrong.
My phone couldn't get enough. It wasn't me. It was my phone. I promise! ;)
-slurp-
Hahhhhhhhhhhhh!
NocturnalMistress
00:58 Mar 31 2011
LMFAO!!!
She said "SLURP"!
Bahahahaha.
I soooo needed THAT laugh.
:D
meeper
02:59 Apr 02 2011
I'm just surprised anyone has a sexting cherry...